I'm beating myself up for getting a 1 on my Calc. AP Exam. I know I should be happy that I passed Psych with a 5 and U.S. History with a 4, but I can't bring myself to see that. I'm disappointed in myself. I got a 3 in English.

English is one of my favorite subjects, but I barely passed. When I see some of my friends that passed Calc. with a 4 or English with a 5, I just feel fierce envy bubble up, only to spill over to self-pity.

When my parents saw the English 3/Calculus 1, they didn't seem to happy either. While I was excited that I did get a 4/5, the bad overpowered the good.

Now, I just feel under-accomplished; like I could have done so much better if I just didn't give up on myself. It's a horrible sense of regret that's going to haunt me until I realize that I'm not perfect.

Having a vast superiority complex, this is a very wearisome task.

It's no use crying over spilt milk, but once in a while, you need to.